Just fresh out of my teen years, a baby adult. Learning about life and adulthood but not being studious as I should have been.
Before you know it there's a baby in my arms, I'm married with a mortgage, and then BAM now a divorcee.
After that and for about the next eight years I celebrated every holiday and Valentine's Day with the most adorable little girl, my daughter. Wouldn't have it any other way. Though, it would have been nice to experience all the feels, like, being surprised by a special someone with flowers and chocolates, a dinner or hike and picnic, or lets be honest, valentine donuts would have been amazing! Nevertheless, I let God's plan lead the way, pushing back all that my heart thirsted for. It was not easy. Much easier said than lived. I knew the heartbreak and pain that would come should I not be smart in who I let next in my heart.
2012 came around...and feeling all thirty-two years young. Little did I know that was the year my life would change.
An unplanned, super casual and friendly dinner at Outback Steakhouse led to many other outings with an old friend. Those outings eventually led to a Valentine's dinner and before the stars could make their sparkle in the sky, I officially had a boyfriend and became someone's girlfriend.
My friend of fourteen years became my boyfriend. That boyfriend then became my fiancé and we celebrated our four year anniversary sick with a cold, this last November.
It has been six years since that one Valentine's Day that changed everything.
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Ladies and gentlemen, know your worth.
Valentine's day can be the sweetest day filled with all things pink and red, heart shaped cakes and donuts, and nothing less than love being sprinkled around like confetti. Valentine's can also be the worst day ever invented on planet Earth.
Whatever your feels or thoughts are of February 14th, ALWAYS know your worth. Never ever settle. You are so worthy of the best and know, there is so much beauty during the season of waiting. Don't ever think He's forgotten about you. Trust me, your Boaz (or Ruth) is out there (and please read about Boaz in the Bible).
It took one very sad divorce, many years of being in the season of waiting, lots of growth, lots and lots of God, and finally the fog in my eyes cleared. My Boaz was there all along.
But had we dated earlier, we wouldn't have been ready for one another. Timing is everything. Timing is essential. And His timing is always perfect.
Never loose sight of His beautiful Will for your life.